May Sigil - Karma Cleanser
“But what if I should discover that the least among them all, the poorest of the beggars, the most impudent of all offenders, the very enemy himself - that these are within me, and I myself stand in need of the alms of my own kindness, that I myself am the enemy who must be loved - what then?”
-Carl Gustav Jung
A sigil to identify and integrate any shadow aspects that are currently making themselves known in order to finally let go of deep karmic patterns, so that new and more beneficial behaviors can emerge.
Feel free to print it out, use as a screensaver, or you can just simply draw it out (it doesn’t have to be completely identical, as long as you have the gist of it), and then when focusing on it imagine the shadow piece that is currently emerging is inside the sigil making its way up from the bottom to the top, to finally be released at the tip of the triangle. (I will go into more detail about how to do that towards the end of this article. )
(Disclaimer: This is not intended to be a replacement for psychotherapy or any other kind of shadow integration work, this acts best as an energetic support and guide.)
Energetically for the year so far, we have been given the opportunity to fire ourselves up, breaking up old patterns of lethargy (Solar Transformer), and then attract only the people and circumstances that will support us in our life missions (Magnetic Aligner).
It looks like we are heading back into some karmic cleansing again, but this time. we are getting much more specific with identifying what parts of ourselves are holding us back at this time.
Sometimes when we get close to what we actually want in life, there are going to be parts of ourselves that, for whatever reason, will attempt to sabotage this possibility. Now before you start lambasting this part of yourself, or try to avoid it, perhaps you can figure what this lost piece is, and find a way to empathize with it. It is, after all, YOU.
Wholeness is the Goal.
In truth this lost shadow piece is exactly what is needed to be integrated back into you so that you CAN achieve your heart’s desire. It just needs to be honored and balanced with all of your other parts.
This shadow piece is KEY to bringing you into the next paradigm shift, and it will either lift you up into greater heights, or it will drag you back down and keep you in the dark.
The beauty of this, is that because (if you are working with the sigils) you are not being distracted by other people, you can finally look and see the ‘enemy’ is already inside of you, orchestrating these problems all along. It will come into sharper focus, albeit painfully so. You cannot project this onto those around you right now, because if you do so, you will be immediately called out. And rightfully so.
Time to go inward.
Here is an example of my own experience with this:
Lately, every time I jump on the highway to go to work, I get tailgated, dangerously so. Before this year I would have felt victimized, and while getting out of the way, protest about how God has it in for me, and why do people bully me so. etc, etc. Well, with the fiery energies of late, the pendulum has swung dramatically to “Sc#$w you! I ain’t budging, and I will die in a fiery wreckage before I let you pass!”
Not flattering to say the least. Or wise. Or, more importantly, safe!
Now I could berate myself, as I have done so many times in the past. OR I could identify where this is coming from. Why would I get so fired up for something that ultimately bears no consequence to anything meaningful or important in my life?
The answer lies in my childhood. Most of my young life, I have been bullied, and in such a way that I had no other recourse other than to shut up and take it. I was perpetually bullied into submission. The part of me that was indignant, the part that would have fought back, had to be repressed, and locked away inside myself, because it was deemed too unsafe for it to be adequately expressed. And so every time a driver came up and and bullied me out of the way, those painful memories were being awakened yet again (as well as the adrenaline).
If left unchecked this reaction could potentially lead to a terrible accident or road rage incident, but thankfully I had enough awareness to take this as an opportunity to reflect.
After gently questioning this part of myself, I realized that even though I am no longer being bullied, this part of me still felt as if it were. I listened to and consoled the little child and the young teen inside me that had been treated so poorly. I discovered what they needed. They needed to feel powerful, they needed to feel successful, and they needed to feel useful.
In truth I am a deeply ambitious, competitive person who thrives on new successes. This me needs to stand alongside the other me that is compassionate and considerate.
And so we made a pact. I listen to this side of me, and try not to repress my desire for success, and this side of me will promise not to get out of hand, and only become active when it is appropriate to do so.
And so I am in the process of integration, and eventually over time I will not need to be so vigilant, as this long lost part of me starts to seamlessly blend in as its needs are finally and fully met. The internal conflict will be resolved, and I will be one step closer to wholeness, and to my dreams.
This is what this sigil is for.
What are you doing lately to sabotage yourself? What if you were to isolate and identify what causes you to do so? Does this reactive part of you have memories of these triggers? Is there a root cause?
You can use this sigil as a visual aid for integration of this shadow piece.
Directions:
Imagine placing the shadow piece inside the triangle/circle image in the bottom (this is called the Initiator). This honors the fact that this shadow piece is being initiated and triggered at this time to be integrated.
Again visualize this shadow piece as a ball of energy, and let it travel up the sigil. The first two oblong shapes represent the shadow emerging unconsciously at first, in the form of events or uncontrollable emotions, as it travels upwards however, this gradually enters your awareness more and more.
The third oblong up houses the Integrator symbol. (Circle within a circle), it is here we intend for the shadow piece to be fully made conscious and to be integrated into the whole. In my imagination it spins like a washing machine churning and cleansing and jumbling everything together!
When ready, the energy moves up further to be fully released and become naturally balanced and refined as it progresses upwards to the tip to the triangle (Called the Prism).
This is an sigil you can return to again and again, as the process of integration can take some time. Perhaps, days, months, or in some cases years. As your eyes wander over the image, intend that whatever symbol they want to fall on is exactly where you are in the process of integrating the shadow piece.